may 8

i am jealous.
but i have my good days too.
and days off. and parties to throw.
and i'm becoming the mother, but
i want to be the girl who has fun.

and i still want things like london
and other things like zambia.

i have my good ones, like magnolia
trees and shared bottles and staying
up late or staying over and lovely
people who are excited and enraged
and vibrant to me, they are vibrant
to me. oh, thank you. you are vibrant
to me.