forever and ever and ever

"one of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only now and then one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever and ever. one knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time and goes out and stands alone and throws one's head far back and looks up and watches the pale sky slowly changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening until the east almost makes one cry out and one's heart stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the rising sun - which has been happening every morning for thousands and thousands of years. one knows it then for a moment or so. and one knows it sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look in someone's eyes."

-the secret garden

toujours et toujours

quite contrary

"might i have a bit of earth?"

-mary, the secret garden

me, in college

my utopia

"human beings will be happier - not when they cure cancer or get to mars or eliminate racial prejudice or flush lake erie but when they find ways to inhabit primitive communities again. that's my utopia."

-kurt vonnegut, jr.

march

it's ok because there is a season for everything

and right now i'm not writing but instead

taking pictures and being very busy and making

plans and learning my lines and reacting truthfully

and acting on impulse and making food and sleeping

in the middle of my bed and all things like that.

home

i took these.