i'm getting into this scared, very frightened feeling.
and it is feeling afraid of myself and feeling sad and
confused. and i look down at my fingernails which
are pink and my hair that is cute and ready for work.
and it has nothing to do with me. i can feel the bottom-
side of my eyes burning and my jaw tightening and my
spine crunching. i'm afraid of things, i'm afraid of
slamming the door i'm afraid of steam out my ears.
and of course its all very confusing because i just want
life to be beautiful. and it is. and even today, maybe
the sun will still rise. and someone will say i love you
and someone will kiss my cheek and say it's o.k.