every inch

every inch of my body
hurts ouch.
i feel like crying ouch.
i feel like sinking into wine ouch.
but really i just
want to be held tightly.
in familiarity and
without all this pain.
hear me ouch.
hear me out there.
hear me whispering
and gently mocking
and sobbing
and scribbling.
hear me squeezing
and ripping
and silently hitting
and spitting.
i am just hurting ouch
in a swirling pool,
in doubt, in blinding
doubt and questions
and revisions, oh, ouch.